One third through the redraft of my opening scene. At this point in the plot in draft#1 I was at 1,300 words–draft#2 at the same plot point I am at 3,700. And I think it still feels rushed. Rough transitions. Unclear thoughts. Shaky description in places. Tedious. It’s going to come down to paragraph by paragraph editing. Sentence to sentence. Word to word. And even then, who is to say that somehow my original version isn’t better? Different. I could be doing nothing but making things different and that my ability is topped out at this level–no matter the rewriting.

Awful thoughts, but probably true.