are very difficult to write.  And almost as difficult to write about unfortunately. It’s a spot in the outline of the story that looks deceptively simple and yet it wraps up a very important story thread. It is a major conflict for my character. The defining conflict for her and somehow it got pushed to the side in development.

So, here I struggle. Trying to push through it and partially writing around it, hoping that in a redraft I’ll be able to tighten it up and make more sense of what is really going on. Don’t think it isn’t hard to to do that though. In the effort to continue forward I’ve moved on to the next big scene which flows directly from the action partially unwritten, and having trouble with that as well–the details of conversation, the logical argument and refutation of said argument nearly impossible to get a right feeling for. I feel certain measure of despair to have worked out so many other complicated issues and end the last chapters of my draft like this.

Here is where true faith comes in. It’s a moment of small crisis for me personally. I feel that it is not insurmountable by any means, but I have to trust that it’s okay not to quite have things tightly in focus. For here I am then at the second of the last four chapters. I shall make a sloppy mess of it and be relieved, for the last two chapters I do have a solid feel for, down to the very last words.